The journey so far

The things I have done the past few months while I was pulling off that disappearing act.

1. Burnt some midnight oil,sprained a muscle or two,kicked myself for having not been smart enough to have chosen another easier profession and somehow got through a long series of exams.

2. Went through a nerve racking residency match and flew across every corner of the country attending interviews. Drained every penny from PC Man's generous pocket while he sweetly drove me to airport religiously every week and took care of little Ina.

3. Spent the post interview months making PC Man pull his hair out in sheer frustration trying to stop me from chewing my nails off in frenzied anticipation of the results.

4. Finally landed a residency in a field I love but which required a big move from a beloved city to a smaller,colder town in the west. Sold the condo, rented a house in the new town and got poor grandma to fly overseas to help us with Ina.

5. Began a journey of planning a life around a call schedule,being constantly sleep deprived,demanding,thrilling and utterly tiring life as a first year medical resident while trying to balance an equally choatic life with a preschooler.

I love what I do but at times it can get pretty stressful and starts to get to me. It's been just a few months into the training and the constant tiredness at times consumes me. Every 4th day being on call working straight 36-40 hours exhausts me. I miss being there 24/7 for Ina above all. But at the end of each day when she shreiks in delight at the sight of me and comes rushing in with a big little hug and outpouring of such abundant love everything else just melts away making all of it worthwhile. We try to take one day at a time and ofcourse having a great hubby and a patient mom certainly helps!